Saturday, August 03, 2002
this is something which really hurt me. whenever people are in need of help, they look for me. but once they're outta it, i'm juz dumped aside. worst still, those so called frens of mine, who swear that when they have a partner, they'll never abandon their frens. my ass!
to think that i spent so much time with these so called frens, well i could have just channelled all the time and effort on others. total waste of time! but i've to admit that i'm lucky enough to have a few frens who truly value frenship. they remember me even tho they're in some kinda relationship. i'm so thankful!
i'm not afraid of loneliness. i'm juz upset that these frens who swore that they'll enver abandon their frens, failed to keep their words. now, i shun these people.
i noticed that whenever there's a gathering, it's always organized by the same one or two persons. makes me wonder if these people are really bent on maintaining frenship. my sista, mr wong, is someone whom i admire for keeping this gathering spirit alive. but recently he said that he's kinda tired of it. well, i dun blame him. he has been doing it for years. it's like a mother hen signalling to her chicks, asking them to follow her and makan...hehe. some kinda analogy huh.
frankly speaking, all these thinking made me wonder if the rest of the people are interested in maintaining the gathering spirit, and keeping the group together. i am also tired. in fact, these days i am really tired. not just because i'm down with flu but the stuff i need to do. that's why i am dying to get away and run off to sydney. the people whom i know are normal beings, but sadly, make minimal effort to contribute. in my heart, i'll only remember a few frens. i know that when i officially fulfil my dream, many of my these so-called frens will remember me again.
so much about being frens. but i've to thank these people for giving me an insight into frenship. i'll only maintain contact with those who remember me whether they're single or not.
i've not felt so tired for a long time. these days, i fall alseep even on the train and bus! it's so easy for others to leave and dump all the shit to me.
why me? CAN ANYONE EMPATHIZE WITH ME??????? I'M NOT YOUR SLAVE!
to think that i spent so much time with these so called frens, well i could have just channelled all the time and effort on others. total waste of time! but i've to admit that i'm lucky enough to have a few frens who truly value frenship. they remember me even tho they're in some kinda relationship. i'm so thankful!
i'm not afraid of loneliness. i'm juz upset that these frens who swore that they'll enver abandon their frens, failed to keep their words. now, i shun these people.
i noticed that whenever there's a gathering, it's always organized by the same one or two persons. makes me wonder if these people are really bent on maintaining frenship. my sista, mr wong, is someone whom i admire for keeping this gathering spirit alive. but recently he said that he's kinda tired of it. well, i dun blame him. he has been doing it for years. it's like a mother hen signalling to her chicks, asking them to follow her and makan...hehe. some kinda analogy huh.
frankly speaking, all these thinking made me wonder if the rest of the people are interested in maintaining the gathering spirit, and keeping the group together. i am also tired. in fact, these days i am really tired. not just because i'm down with flu but the stuff i need to do. that's why i am dying to get away and run off to sydney. the people whom i know are normal beings, but sadly, make minimal effort to contribute. in my heart, i'll only remember a few frens. i know that when i officially fulfil my dream, many of my these so-called frens will remember me again.
so much about being frens. but i've to thank these people for giving me an insight into frenship. i'll only maintain contact with those who remember me whether they're single or not.
i've not felt so tired for a long time. these days, i fall alseep even on the train and bus! it's so easy for others to leave and dump all the shit to me.
why me? CAN ANYONE EMPATHIZE WITH ME??????? I'M NOT YOUR SLAVE!
