Thursday, October 10, 2002
i've brought u all the bad news for the day. well, actually iw as very happy this afternoon coz there is a possibility that i might be sponsored for my pastry course. but of course i will be bonded. i'll email the boss first then meet up with him next week. i have to see watz the bond like before i can make up my mind. but iw a sreally happy. that'll save my mum the money which has been making me feel guilty for the past few mths.
i am dying to meet up with the boss coz i wanna know whats in store for me. but that also means that i've to come back to singapore after my course to fulfil the bond.
:))
now, i am feeling tired, mentally tired. sometimes i wonder where i get all my mental strenth from. but i can feel like my brain's gonna crumble and fall apart anytime. hehe.
i feel sad for myself now. i feel that all the time and effort and money i put into sthg has gone down the drain. i am angry. i dunno who i'm angry with. there are alot of questions in my mind right now. i've been avoiding frens coz i juz dun feel like seeing them. seems like i'm a world apart from them.each and everyone of u readin this entry now, seems alien to me. i am lost. 22yrs old. still bitching abt life. still wasting time, wasting money, still unsure of myself.
WHERE AM I?
i am dying to meet up with the boss coz i wanna know whats in store for me. but that also means that i've to come back to singapore after my course to fulfil the bond.
:))
now, i am feeling tired, mentally tired. sometimes i wonder where i get all my mental strenth from. but i can feel like my brain's gonna crumble and fall apart anytime. hehe.
i feel sad for myself now. i feel that all the time and effort and money i put into sthg has gone down the drain. i am angry. i dunno who i'm angry with. there are alot of questions in my mind right now. i've been avoiding frens coz i juz dun feel like seeing them. seems like i'm a world apart from them.each and everyone of u readin this entry now, seems alien to me. i am lost. 22yrs old. still bitching abt life. still wasting time, wasting money, still unsure of myself.
WHERE AM I?
