Tuesday, November 19, 2002
i was very tired the whole day and during work, my concentration lapsed. in the afternoon, i ahd to make chocolate mousse cake on my own. well, i messed it up. got a earful from the senior chef. sigh...it's not that i wanna make that kinda mistakes but i was really tired and i had to confess that i had no confidence in making the cake. dunno why. juz felt unsure. when i wa smaking the cake, my colleague said that i was like "floating" ard. totally zombied!
i am so disappointed with myself. think the senior chef wanted me to shine. but....sigh.
i'm feeling down now. i wish i can rewind everything and redo the whole thing.
frnakly spkg, this is ahrder than studying. it's really tougher. but i'm not letting go. afterall, i'm new. i've much much much more to learn. yes, i'm upset now. who won't right? but i'll get over it. i will. i'll do the cake again if i'm given another chance. i can get the raspberry cake right, i cannot fail this one.
hehe, u know, i cannot confide in others when i've pblms or when i'm feeling down. coz i confide in myself. i'll "talk" myself through and "scold" whenever i need to or "remind" myself. i always believe that if u wanna improve, u ahve to be strong internally. so when the external self makes a mistake, the internal must surface and do the necessary. sounds bizarre? that's the way i am.
:)
i am so disappointed with myself. think the senior chef wanted me to shine. but....sigh.
i'm feeling down now. i wish i can rewind everything and redo the whole thing.
frnakly spkg, this is ahrder than studying. it's really tougher. but i'm not letting go. afterall, i'm new. i've much much much more to learn. yes, i'm upset now. who won't right? but i'll get over it. i will. i'll do the cake again if i'm given another chance. i can get the raspberry cake right, i cannot fail this one.
hehe, u know, i cannot confide in others when i've pblms or when i'm feeling down. coz i confide in myself. i'll "talk" myself through and "scold" whenever i need to or "remind" myself. i always believe that if u wanna improve, u ahve to be strong internally. so when the external self makes a mistake, the internal must surface and do the necessary. sounds bizarre? that's the way i am.
:)
