Saturday, December 04, 2004
my french boss n his family came to singapore on wed afternoon. iw as informed by takako that they'd arrive ehre on thursday noon. i had two days off - thu n fri. then my thai fren arived on thu nite. so i spent my off days keeping them company. i was really surprised by my bosss appearance here. but i was happy. really happy altho it didn't show on my face. my boss's wife asked me "wat are u thinking abt?" she said i looked pissed off. i'm not pissed with their presence. i missed them badly. when i waved goodbye to them at the airport, i was sad. wanted to cry. but i was more upset with myself. i dun think iw as a good host. i brought my pblms with me even when i'm with all of them. i'm sorry. i can't help it. really sorry, ifel, yasmina, tom, clara n nuch.
my colleague's back from paris n learnt abt my "confession" to another colleague at ah teng. i told the latter ( carmen) that i really didn't like the work there. that was on monday. i told her that i told my boss during my appraisal that i was struggling. she asked me why i didn't tell her at the beginning. well, my transfer cannot be prevented by any one. my junior sous chef told me that he did all he could to stop my boss to transfer me. so carmen was happy that i told her the truth coz she always thought that i looked very troubled but i never say a thing. so my this colleague who just came back (jean), learnt abt all these, she told me that they really didn't know that the transfer did me no good at all. initially they thought i will be ver happy here. they're wrong. well i told her that i can't change the situation so i've to change my mindset. it's true that i can't find that kinda energy at banquet n transfer them to ah teng. jean understood that. i told her that i'm taking this as a challenge. to accept the transfer n do a good job. she felt very bad.
i feel terrible too. everyone can tell that i'm not happy. i'll try to cahnge my minset. i have to. but i've a feeling that i may be transferred to another team.
my colleague's back from paris n learnt abt my "confession" to another colleague at ah teng. i told the latter ( carmen) that i really didn't like the work there. that was on monday. i told her that i told my boss during my appraisal that i was struggling. she asked me why i didn't tell her at the beginning. well, my transfer cannot be prevented by any one. my junior sous chef told me that he did all he could to stop my boss to transfer me. so carmen was happy that i told her the truth coz she always thought that i looked very troubled but i never say a thing. so my this colleague who just came back (jean), learnt abt all these, she told me that they really didn't know that the transfer did me no good at all. initially they thought i will be ver happy here. they're wrong. well i told her that i can't change the situation so i've to change my mindset. it's true that i can't find that kinda energy at banquet n transfer them to ah teng. jean understood that. i told her that i'm taking this as a challenge. to accept the transfer n do a good job. she felt very bad.
i feel terrible too. everyone can tell that i'm not happy. i'll try to cahnge my minset. i have to. but i've a feeling that i may be transferred to another team.
