a new life

lotsa stuff happened in the last four weeks. direct confrontation with my team mates at work n just a week ago, was accused by my boss of making fun of him.....life is a bitch. i'm getting quieter n quieter at work. not talking. everyone's been asking me if i'm fine. i appreciate their concern but some thiings i really can't say to them. it's abt work. if i speak too much, i'll probably create the impression that i'm badmouthing my own team mates. pure misery here. i'm really confused right now.

i will quit n move on to another place to work. already got a place in mind. but a part of me really can't bear to leave. i will miss some of my collegaues. however, if is tay on, i know it's gonna be more painful down the road. never ever work with ur frens esp'ly ur good pal. i've two living examples at work to confirm this.

i wanna learn n am willing to learn. when i was at banquet, i asked many questions but here at ah teng, i dun even dare to offer my help coz it may upset some people. since then i never progressed. with a new pastrychef, we have new cakes to make n i can tell ya to date, i've not made any of the new stuff. i've given up. physically i'm there but mentally, spiritually, i'm elsewhere.

guyz, i'm upset, confused, miserable......arghhhhhhhhh.......help me!!!!